Doesn’t usually end up well.

Everything I have tried to do today has gone wrong. 

It has not been fun. I finally admitted defeat after seven hours of nothing working. I messed up an order four times. My laptop died when I tried to write. I decided to try to wrap Christmas presents and quit after the second paper cut. I took out the garbage, and the bag ripped in the kitchen. I burned myself when I tried to cook. 

Basically, it’s been rough. 

I have been trying to figure out what’s going on. I finally realized a couple hours ago. I am really, really tired. I’ve been going nonstop for weeks, and things are finally starting to fall through the cracks. I was late to work yesterday. I forgot that I had to send out my newsletter yesterday. My head is pounding 24/7. No matter how much I sleep, I am still tired because I am constantly working when awake. 

I am very aware of the fact that I have to stop. 

Doing everything does not work long-term. No matter how hard I try, I can only maintain it in the short term. This is my commitment to taking some time to unwind. Relax. I think I need to, or I am going to keep having days like this.